I wish things were different.. happier. Some people live life like that.. with a happy tone.. Lucky them. My lives pretty much been haunted by this eerie backdrop.. A violent one. A broken one. So dark. And Sad. Toxic. Destructive. I’m tired.. everything hurts. I’m scared.
I feel old.. and used up.. like I let everyone get the best of me. I see the light of day in the dark of the night and the dark night in the light of the day.. I’m stuck. Still baffling. Going back and forth. I don’t know what I want… I don’t smile anymore.